As anyone who reads my blog knows, I was hit with panic and anxiety a few years back and my life went on hold. This is the year I got my life back.
In October, the Bishop of our Anglican Diocese retired. He has been a major player in my life and in my husband's and my lives before Larry passed away. I love the man dearly; he has shown me care, encouragement, empathy, and strength. So, when his retirement dinner was announced, I couldn't not go. Stepping out in faith, I went with two friends of mine down to the city to attend this dinner ... completely out of my comfort zone.
Surprise! I had a marvelous time! There wasn't a single moment of concern that the ogre would rear his ugly head; rather I saw and visited with people I haven't seen in years, had a very nice dinner, enjoyed the toasts and the entire evening in general. It was all summed up when the Bishop looked up and saw me and said, "my goodness, look at the size of this room, look at all these people, and look at you standing here. Praise God!"
When the dinner was over and my two friends finally dragged me out of there, I gave a loud cheer that I had achieved this victory. You wanna talk confidence booster?! My first major evening out in years and the realization that I could start doing more.
My youngest nephew was married recently and I was invited to the reception being held at my brother's home in southern California last weekend. A friend has family in the area and she offered to drive down with me. She spent the weekend at her son's and attended her grandchildren's Christmas performance, a win-win weekend for both of us.
Again, a wonderful time! Friday night we went out to dinner with friends of my brother and sister-in-law, people I didn't know (a situation I'm usually very uncomfortable with) and it was fine; it was fun. Saturday was the reception. I'd never met either of my nephew's wives and had never seen my grand-niece who is a year and a half old. Family members and friends that I haven't seen in years were also there. Saturday was just plain fun. Sunday my brother, sister-in-law, sister and I just sat and visited. It was the best weekend in years!! Monday I picked up my friend and we headed home.
Don't know where the ogre went, don't want to know, don't care. By God's will and with the power and protection of the Holy Spirit, he's gone and I look forward to him staying gone. I'm looking forward to having my life back! Places to go, things to do, people to see ... yee-haw!!!
I boarded the two dogs at the Pet Hotel and Judi kept care of the black tornado while we were gone. That's a whole other story and I'll tell it in another post.